I lost 42 kilos and have gained 20 kilos back and it is all my doing.
I think the problem is... is that I want to work out how I lost the weight the first time but I think it was because my head was in the right way.
Went back to the gym today after having a couple of weeks where I was really low and depressed and felt like I was drowning and nothing in my life seemed right and I wanted to pick holes in everything.
But after going back to the gym today I realised I have missed this. I need to focus on me and not on everyone else and that is where I have failed. I started to get annoyed that others were losing weight around me at a faster rate than I was and that someone was doing better but I was doing well and was losing weight and that was the main point.
Today at the gym
Cross Trainer
Bike
20 minutes cardio class in the gym room.
It wasn't much but it was exercise and I feel so much better since doing it.
They say with depression that doing exercise helps. I have to agree it does but it is getting yourself to the gym when you are feeling low.... now that is the hardest thing.
138 kgs is my weight.. I got down to 119 kgs from 160 kgs and now I am back up to 138 OMG that is just terrible. I need to do something about that.
I have 3 years and 7 months until we have been married for 20 years (together for 26 1/2 years when this happens) and I want to get re-married and wear a beautiful dress. Maybe a beautiful blue cocktail dress with sparkly things on it. Jeremy and I and our closest friends and family being there and having a beautiful party to celebrate.
So 3 years and 7 months to get there...
I need to lose 400 grams a week to get there. Ok if I lose more a week then I will get there sooner but I don't need to do that and have unrealistic goals. 400 grams a week will get me there in the end won't it...
So 400 grams a week challenge to get me to my 20th Wedding anniversary and feeling great
I found when I lost the 42 kgs that I blogged and it kept me going and I kept focus so I am going to do the same thing now.
I need to lose 74 kgs.
I can do this.
I will do this
Lets get on with doing this then.
Just a little thing before we start though..... this is my journey and some things you may not like and that is ok but please keep it to yourself. I would love to have you on my journey with me but I would also like your positive comments and encouragement and I will endeavour to do the same for you as well.
Nighty night everyone
